Tomorrow morning at 5am Will has to be at UPS to talk with a HR rep and take a tour of the facility. After months and months of us battling our financial situation he has decided that he would look into getting a second job. I'm feeling A LOT of guilt about this decision!
IF he gets the job at UPS he would most likely be working hours from like 3am to 7am (or something like that) at UPS, go to shcool, and then attend his other job at Housemaster for the rest of the day. Only to come home and do homework and probably be ready for bed shortly thereafter. I know for a fact if that were me in his shoes I wouldn't be able to do it, for sure! I'm worried about the stresses the 2nd job will not only put on him, but us as well. Will has assured me that he can do it. I'm not doubting that he can't, I just feel guilty that he will be working 2 jobs AND going to school....all the while I'm at home. And yes, I do have a "job" at home with 3 kids, but I can relax when kids are sleeping, at school and whatnot.
I can't help but think that I am the one being selfish by not going out and finding a part-time job. I don't know? I do know that lately we haven't had enough money with what Will brings home (which isn't bad) and it has been so stressful with all of our bills. I know that if Will gets the UPS job it will help us out a lot financially. And he says that it even offers part-time employees benefits. I'm just at a standstill of feeling very guilty that he would be working 2 jobs and going to school. That's a lot of responsibility. I just know how tired and grumpy it would make ME if it were me in that sitation. And I really do depend a lot on Will with helping out with the kids. So I know that I will have to suck it up on those bad/hard days I might have cause I'm sure he won't want to hear it from me. I dunno...I'm just rambling. I guess I wanted to get the guilt outta my head.
I think I am secretly hoping that he doesn't get the job at UPS. I keep thinking there has got to be a better solution. A miracle. I just don't see how it will work. But that's just me, the pessimist. I guess I shall wait and see what tomorrow brings.
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Oh Mel! I would have total mixed feelings too. That sucks when you are in a tough spot and no answer seems really "good", kwim? If you need to just hang out or whatever you know I am here!
Maybe he can just try it for awhile, and see how it goes until something better comes along? He can always quit if it's not working. Can he cut back a little with school? I know he needs to get that over with, but sometimes the stress isn't worth it, and going to school an extra quarter or whatever might be better than totally being stressed out right now.
mel I have soo been there. I have felt those same feelings of guilt. I saw Mike work 2 jobs and go to school for years and I have no idea how he did it. I know I would be a baby. I always offered to take a 2nd job and he never wanted me too.
It isn't fun but, Sometimes it gets the hardest right before it gets a bit easier. I hope that is your case and things will ease up. Just know that I am here if you need to talk.
Ugh!! I too would feel the same, its so hard to figure out what to do and how to get there. Things will work out some way some how. I hear UPS is a really good company to work for an you can make 60K if you become a driver, so maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
i think you should totally explore the option , and don't slow down with school, push though and get it done asap! why prolong the hell!? push through, sacrifice, live on a budget, cut out any extras you can except bunko, and your medication is not an extra, it's a necessity! you need to be as sane as possible. and i have also heard UPS is a great company to work for.
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